I am one who hoped never to become a teacher. I had no idea what it meant to teach, but I was sure I didn’t want it. Well…knowing what it means to be a teacher won’t convince you either.
But there’s a thrill to being watched, listened to, observed, even imitated. Attitudes, faces, behaviour, words, body, flaws – everything is on display. And if you’re my kind of teacher, you’re gonna try to be the best you can be every day.
I studied so hard to excel in music, since I wasn’t a very gifted one, so I was expecting fireworks celebrating my awesomeness when I graduated Music Composition with very high praise.
There were no fireworks. Sure, people were impressed, but your employer doesn’t care about the expanded music horizon you want to introduce children to, and how you’re gonna change the core of their being just by teaching them a song about friendship, and how their life is never gonna be the same because they met you. No…some care about performance and popularity and some just don’t care.
I have always had the blessed opportunity to work with people who trust me and my process, and give me freedom to express myself while teaching, even when I was younger and inexperienced.
Right now I’m teaching music and piano to preschool kids.
I know what you’re thinking…”how good of a composer can you be if you end up teaching toddlers?“. Some of you may know by now that life doesn’t necessarily work like that.
But I’m telling you, preschool is the worst. They can’t read, they can’t write, some of them hardly draw, they have a poor vocabulary and understanding, and you have to find 5 million ways of explaining a quarter note just to make sure they remember the name. Any sort of evolution is tiny and hard to obtain, but the rejoicing has to be explosive in order to keep them interested. Try getting excited 8 times a day for discovering that the stave has 5 lines…hashtag every day. I know there are unpleasant sides to teaching music to middle-school and high-school pupils, I’ve been there, but sometimes…you just miss that feeling when you say something and your student understands.
It’s been six years since I started teaching, I’m getting involved – seems like I’ll be doing this for a long time!